She loves to spread out and lounge in her bath tub. Thus, I call it the spa.
This was my attempt at giving her a mohawk.
Here she is before the bath, staring with wonder at the computer.
And a smile for Daddy while in her high chair.
We did survive the two days without seeing each other at lunch time. But I still much prefer to see her. I had a rough moment or two at work yesterday when I got our calendar for the month. I looked at it and realized there were going to be several more days that I wouldn't get to see her at lunch and I had a mini-breakdown. And then another about an hour later. And then another when I picked her up at day care later that day. But I am trying to remember that I blessed to get to see her at lunch at all. The vast majority of working moms go all day without seeing their little ones. So I'm trying to focus on the happiness of getting to see her at lunch when I do and not on the disappointment and frustration of not getting to do so on the days when it's not possible.
Since I am continuing on my quest to be transparent and authentic, let me tell you about my frustrations lately. I think this week I am really feeling the pressure of mommy-hood along with being a wife, keeping up my house, and trying to be a decent employee. Work is going well and I feel pretty good about how Gracie is doing. But I think my duties of being a wife and caretaker of the house are slipping. I told Nathaniel tonight that I just feel like it is so hard to get done at night what needs to be done. And I'm not doing extra stuff and he often helps by making dinner or doing the dishes, etc. And he reminded be that I don't have to be perfect. But I don't feel like I am anywhere near even good, not to mention perfect! We want to both be hanging with Grace but there are lunches to be made for the next days, bottles to be washed, laundry to do, beds to be made, etc. I know I am supposed to ignore all of the not-so-important stuff to focus on family time. I have been ignoring cleaning for the most part (you would not want to see my living room floor right now!) but I feel like that's the only thing I can really ignore. I guess I could stop blogging, too, but it feels therapeutic most often...and doesn't take very long. Anyway, I know it's the same thing that every mom goes through, but it's my first time so I'm still trying to figure out how to wear all of my hats and keep my priorities in line.
Enough of that for now! I am excited about Grace's first Halloween coming up and I am looking for a costume for her. I think she'd make a super cute lady bug, so let me know if you see such a costume for a 3 month old! We are all excited that Mom is coming to visit this weekend. She will be chilling with Grace while Nathaniel and I go to a wedding. It'll be our first extended time out alone since Grace has come! I'm so thankful to have family nearby to hang with Grace when we need a break.
Speaking of Grace, tonight we tried a new nighttime schedule. She usually eats around 9:30 then goes to bed about 10pm. We have noticed lately, though, that she's sleeping around 8 or 8:30. So tonight we tried to put her to bed at 8. I think she fell asleep by 9...so not too awful for the first night. I hate putting her to bed earlier because it's less time with her at night, but maybe it'll make her more rested during the day. And probably it will make the evenings less stressful. We'll see how it goes!
For now, I'm glad to have almost made it through my first five day work week since Grace's birth!
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